When I told my Mum that morning on the phone that I was going to start a blog, I expected laughter, my written English has never been anything other than OK and my grammar is nothing short of cringeworthy in parts … However my Mum never laughed, nor offered anything up other than encouragement.
With my Mum as what I thought would be my only reader I set off on this blogging journey 2.5 years ago with rose-tinted glasses.
For the first year and a half I jumped at every given opportunity, often in lieu of sleep or any real judgement, I offered support and help to others that was not always reciprocated and I went out on a limb supporting some people who were never there to offer the same support in return.
A few months ago I lost my blogging mojo, so much so I nearly packed it all in, however with the supports of some very lovely blogging ladies I knuckled down and went back to why I started blogging in the first place.
The events, trips, review products and the fact I earn an income, are of course great incentives to write a blog, although when for 3 weeks straight you have been up till 3am hitting deadlines or playing catch up, you haven’t climbed out of you PJ’s for days and the kids think you have given up caring .. it really does take more than just a fleeting interest to keep it going.
There are many bloggers that are always wanting to aim higher, want more, say yes to everything … and for me I was like that too. However I couldn’t keep going like that, It was exhausting, painful and gruelling. The competitiveness that led me to sell my soul and put up with challenging myself over and over again, every waking second of every day has been unmanageable.
It had to stop
This January I made a pact to myself, not only to be more organised and to tackle media planning with the companies I work with in a more organised fashion, but I made a pact to make time for my family.
My children are growing so very quickly and I was missing it, hiding behind a screen spending my time writing about the moments … but missed experiencing them fully, defeating the whole reason for wanting to stay at home with my children.
For the first time since I started blogging I am more selective of the yes answer, and with the opportunities I now take. I am starting to say ‘no’ and that has given me back my reason to write. My love of my little virtual space, my grammatical mistakes and my passion.
Most of all it has given me back my story to write, my way.
It’s so easy to be dragged into the competitiveness, the rankings, the need to be invited, included and selected for every opportunity going, I spent a long time feeling this way but this last few months has only gone to prove its been nothing but a relief to let it go.
By moving on from the those negatives around me, rebalancing and rebuilding I am back to being me …
Disclaimer: This is a collaborative post, although all thoughts and opinions are my own.