I have pretty much been a smoker for most of my adult life, I smoked intermittently around the ages of 16 -18 but at 18 I stepped over the line from being a social smoker to a fully fledged hardcore nicotine addict.
At the age of 20 I battled with my addiction in order to stop when I discovered I was pregnant with Bethany. I remained smoke free for 13 months during and just after my daughter but I soon reverted to my old ways and before long I was smoking more than I had done previously.
Fast forward 10 years and once again I found myself pregnant and smoking .. so once again I delved deep and gave up. I remained that way for the whole of my pregnancy and for the period I was breastfeeding with Joshua but the urge never ever went away to want one and in honesty I could of cracked sooner if the situation had arisen (like having some in the house at 2am!) when Joshua was about 4 months old I sparked back up and never looked back …. till last October.
Although late to the Stoptober party my no smoking journey began and it was not easy .. I have put on 2 stones in weight, I became a living nightmare to be around and for the first 6-8 weeks I just wanted to cry. I suffered anxiety and panic attacks, coughing, bloating and even constipation! (yes I did really type that!)
Over time things have got easier although still with difficulties, with the craving still clinging on for dear life at around 4 – 5 months. It would of been so easy to let my guard down and light back up but for the first time as a non pregnant women I really wanted to give up smoking for me not because I had too!
So here I stand 6 months on ..
Smoke free and smiling as a non smoking version me!