I am normally not phased by things in life much and I normally tend to just get on and tackle things head on, however since returning from holiday a few weeks ago I have lost my normal stride and also lost my desire to crack on.
Currently each day seems harder work than the one before and my body just feels tired.
We have been waiting on new doors and windows at home before starting the decorating projects that have been in the pipeline for some time and finally the plans are underway and the doors and window have been fitted but the decorating plan that I wrote about on my other blog HERE seems to have gone out of the window.
I have not picked any colours, bought any supplies and not even started when I could and should have made a start with decorating 2 days ago … the only thing that has been done is the choice of flooring for my room and there was only one option for us … carpet all the way, thankfully I spotted it from the front of the shop and made a beeline for it …. soft and cream I had to have it and is being fitted in 9 days … and yet I am still sat twiddling my thumbs with not a stroke of paint having been splashed about yet.
I don’t tend to blog about Beth much and as such most won’t know the issues we have had and are having, however things with her seem to have hit their lowest point, although a step in the right direction with her pediatric consultant was made this week, but yet everything else with her seems to have really come off the rails and I am floundering big time!
I am not a fan of public pity parties as I certainly believe that we ought to think ourselves lucky as someone else is always worse off … so over the next few days I am going to give myself a shake, make some choices, start the decorating and generally take back control of my life.
So I am no longer going to berate myself for feeling rather low, I am going to accept that sometimes it ok to feel that way.
I am going to plan things for each day and take it one day at a time instead of looking at the bigger picture.
I am going to do my best to keep a positive mindset
For now though I am going to head off and eat some cake and think about the carpet fitting day …. Surely I am not the only one thats rolls on new carpet?
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