Beth and I were the original duo to the family and every inch of this house reminds me of building our home together.
When Ollie came along it was like he was meant to be, he slotted in and we all loved our little 3.
A short while later Joshua came along and only added to our unit … the 4 of us.
As things changed and the emotional and social issues for Beth hit … life got harder, sometime to the point of unbearable, but we clung tight … no one was there to rescue us, but we had each other.
Now Beth has made the choice to leave our family for the promise of clean slates and fresh starts, her Dad has made it clear that we are not part of her family, the 3 remaining members of this family are sad, we are tired, disappointed and scared at what the future now holds, more for her than for us.
For me I am just sad, sad to my very core that I fought a corner for my daughter that was not enough.
Today I am sad, I have cried and will no doubt cry some more … but these tears are not for anything other than sadness at what my Daughter has chosen to walk away from, sadness at what will be her future and for the little girl I gave birth too.
One day I hope she sees the bigger picture …
Today I am sad, tomorrow is another day and its time to move forward.