This week not only has been emotionally devastating with Beth leaving but it’s also floored me with the next stage for Joshua.
For 2 sessions this week Joshua got to experience life at his new primary school with induction sessions and I thought my heart would break!
On the first morning we arrived at 9.15 and to say he was excited would be an understatement he practically danced his way up the school path to reception. He chatted about the signs round the school, flowers the playground and even what he might get up to on his first morning!
Once through the door he waited so patiently for his new teacher to come and collect him and 2 others and when she came out to collect them, he stood so tall and proud and almost danced behind her off to his new class without a second glance.
I maintained my composure for about 4 minutes but as I left the school gates, I sobbed, not only was I so very proud of him and his confidence I was a little sad at the little boy who is now gone and has changed place with the big boy that he now is.
While Joshua was at school, I paced, I procrastinated and I pondered and those 2.5 hours seemed to take the longest of my life!
When I collected Joshua he was utterly oblivious to just how much I missed him, with his beaming smile and his completion of day one certificate …. he chatted non stop about his new school and his new teacher and the little folks in his classroom and so the following day it was time to go for the afternoon … He squealed with excitement.
I have no doubt my little guy is going to have a ball attending his big boy school in September … just as much as I know I will also need lots of tissues …..