If you are a regular reader round these parts you will know that I have been struggling, mentally, physically and emotionally.
The heath issues, surgeries and weight gain over the last couple of years have played a massive part in where my brain, heart and head is at right now and so recently I started making some changes in my life to allow me more ‘me’ time even if that was only for 20 minutes every day.
On the whole it has helped me realise that minds, hearts and heads all play a part in being a whole person and I am determined that before I turn 40 next year I am going to discover who I am, the me after giving birth to 3 kids, the me after becoming a wife, the me after becoming a business owner and the me I am now.
I honestly don’t think I am alone in my pre middle age slump that has gone through this feeling of being lost and not knowing who I am anymore never mind liking what I see.
So when I was very kindly asked if I wanted to have a Red Shoe Makeover I will be honest I was immensely excited then a few hours later I panicked. After all when I look in the mirror each day I honestly don’t feel like its me looking back so goodness knows what I would look like!
My size 20 frame is well covered in padding, my wrinkles have their own set of matching luggage and then there was what to wear. No word of a lie I am one of those people who even Gok Wan would have a coronary over, with my 7 matching plain black T-Shirts, 5 pairs of matching jeans and 3 pairs of Sketchers. I guess I am the kind of person that just wants to blend in and hide behind others.
My life online is probably testament to that. I don’t have to dress up, I don’t have to make and effort and if I am working from home I don’t even have to get dressed in real clothes, after all no one can tell I am in my PJ’s online.
However I know I need to make an effort to discover me and so this week I am heading over to Chester to Red Shoe Makeovers which if you haven’t heard of them are a female contemporary portrait photography studio.
Sarah Sadler (Photographer) is immensely passionate about making women feel good about themselves and this is why I am trusting her and the team tomorrow when I bear my soul on camera in the flesh.
“Whatever age you are, you are constantly growing into yourself… and that’s what I want to photograph… you as you are today…I think every woman is fabulous and beautiful, and hope that each and every girl sees what the world sees” – Sarah Sadler
For a women that came home from our holiday in Italy with 2,500 photographs and only 1 of those having me in it I am going to pull up my big girl panties and trust in Sarah and the team, after all the photos of the women on the website are all amazing … Watch this space as I will be back to share my experience soon!
Disclaimer: I am receiving a complementary makeover package as part of this collaboration. All thoughts and opinions were independently formed by members of The Oliver’s Madhouse.