From the later months in pregnancy to the those early months of baby and beyond the realisation that sleep deprivation is going to feature in your life is hard …
At the beginning you tackle it with the gruff laughter that it won’t last forever but as each day goes on it’s not quite so funny.
Having a new baby is of course the most amazing experience and we are totally honoured and thrilled that we are lucky enough to expand our family but of course this doesn’t take away the realities of living being sleep deprived.
The first few days of Jacob being here we had it super easy and he kind of slept through most of the day and we kind of became complacent.
Then came the snot and the phlegm stage that newborns tend to go through and with Ollie unable to sleep at all through the day and me breastfeeding the hourly wake ups were super hard, so much so I gave up trying to sleep at night through the hourly slots and instead slept most of the last few weeks on the sofa trying to get Jacob settled.
Although I have been trying to sleep when Jacob sleeps in the day it would be fair to say I can no longer seem to put more than one sentence together at a time, nor can I seem to organise my thoughts enough to compose any real action plan with the days.
Although looking into Jacobs eyes it’s all worth it …
I know this stage won’t last forever but it’s still hard at just what it effects that you have no real idea about, my emotions are still all over the place but it seems so much harder going on, as first I thought I might be depressed but after a couple of fairly good nights sleep (well good for a new baby) and some sleep during the day it certainly helped so I think this time it is down to lack of sleep rather than depression.
So from here on in I am going to make sleep a priority after all there is only so many times you can put your purse in the fridge and your car keys in the washer through lack of sleep.