Now after declaring a few weeks ago that in fact I was going to stop smoking back in September, I need to hold my hands up in the air and be honest…….
I am still smoking!
Initially from the 1st September to the 4th September I did in fact not smoke, but this made me evil (more so than normal) I was shouty, snappy and agitated and altogether a nasty person to be around.
I knew that it would be hard but I just didn’t expect it to be that hard …. I think I had convinced myself that it would be easy and therefore I was not mentally prepared for the side effects of quitting for good.
So on the 5th of September I restarted fearing for my sanity and also to ensure that I didn’t alienate my family permanently. I know to some people this might sound like a cop-out and if I had not gone through it myself I think I may have rolled my eyes at it too.
The journey however didn’t stop there, I know I wanted to be smoke free and I know the horrific chemicals I am putting into my body is doing my health and fitness no good. So as easy as it would have been to sit back on my bum and do nothing. In fact I have been preparing myself and have taken the plunge. I now have myself a shiny new Smoking Advisor!
This week I popped along to my local Boots Smoke Free Advisor and met the lovely Mr D for an informal meeting and to air my smoking skeletons. Now this in the past has had me a little worried as I am as you know a control freak so going along and admitting I was struggling on my own was an incredibly difficult thing for me to do. Mr D was super not judgemental, not opinionated and so helpful …..phew!
Now what I did love is the fact that there are options and lots of them!
I am going to be spending the next week writing down each time I smoke, where I am and what I was doing.
I do already know that I am a bugger for being on the phone when I smoke and also if I’m in the kitchen I do after a while tend to migrate to the back door and spark up…. Do you think Ollie (Hubby) will agree to me never cooking again?? …. I fear not!
I am looking forward to next weeks meeting with Mr D to find out what the recommendations are for moving forward and taking the giant step of becoming smoke free.
Disclaimer: In producing this post I did receive some complementary pampering items to treat myself with while on this journey, however all opinions were independently formed by members of The Oliver’s Madhouse.