Since the summer school holidays I have struggled.
Working from home with small children has been frustrating and soul-destroying. With so much of my time feeling guilt for both not spending as much time with the kids as I want. Then also not spending at much time working as I need either.
During September I vowed to never ever put myself in that situation again and would have to address the work/home balance one way or another.
After much soul-searching through September I decided to make the jump to putting Jacob into private nursery a couple of days per week. However with Mummy guilt kicking in and Ollie feeling uneasy at us putting him in nursery before he turned two we decided that the new year was close enough at 23 months to his second birthday in February. So January was the new beginning of rebalancing home/work life.
This week has been Jacob’s official settling in week. Monday Jacob and I headed over to fill in the paperwork and set the settling in sessions for the week. However Jacob refused to leave and instead I ended up leaving him for an hour on his own. He then refused to leave so I ended up having to physically extract him as we used to with his brother so I knew it would go well.
Tuesday I dropped him off for a couple of hours and again on returning he refused to leave and threw a wobbly in the car so by Wednesday’s 9am -1pm session I knew he would be fine.
This time Ollie came with me to drop off and for a fleeting second he faltered when we left but one of the lovely staff members intervened and when we peeked through again he was fine. After stopping for his lunch we both went to collect him and he refused to leave and come home so another physical extortion was needed.
I am so immensely thankful to have the most wonderful private nursery in our village. The same nursery in fact that Joshua thrived in and I know Jacob will too.
The ladies in the nursery truly are amazingly caring and other than us and his grandparents these lovely ladies make me feel so much better about being able to focus on work as I know they will love him to pieces.
As of next week I am hoping that I can finally start addressing the work life balance and finally sit in my new office and dedicate some much-needed time to my business knowing that Jacob is having a blast. Leaving me to work and then having some proper time off later in the week to spend some much-needed quality time with him instead of trying to balance it all.
This week I am thankful to starting to find balance.