As some of you already know, while on my weight loss journey I have taken Hockey back up and even after the initial terror about playing I have started to feel a little bit more like a help than a hindrance. I did used to play for some really great teams as a teenager but the beer, boys and fags put pay to it!
So last night was the finals for the Summer League and I expected to go along and play but I didn’t expect to feel some thing click, I am not sure I know exactly what it was but for the first time last night I felt I had been accepted as part of the team for earnest. I would like to point out that the team have been more than fantastic with me and my feelings have been more about my lacking confidence than anything else.
Last night I scored the most amazing goal it was one of those moments that I think I will remember forever (on a technical note the goal was disallowed .. wrongly!) but from this point I wanted to cry, not because my goal was disallowed but because it felt right being on that pitch, it felt right me even being there and it felt right that as big as I am I felt no embarrassment about me running round a pitch with my flabby bits flapping in the breeze.
Thank you ladies for supporting me, being my friend and most of all accepting me as an equal. I finally have realised I am equal!
We even came second in the League and I got myself a medal!