Since starting School in September Joshua has come on in leaps and bounds in his own confidence and other than a slight hiccup along the way he has been so excited to be getting a new sibling and has on occasion even bragged about his soon to be new play pal *cough cough* we have explained baby’s don’t do much to start with.
Joshua has been involved with all aspects of baby from scans to organising his nursery and baby clothes and even selecting what pram toys he might like too!
However over recent weeks and the hype gaining momentum to our second little man arriving it has been clear my biggest boy is starting to feel anxious.
Don’t get me wrong he is not sitting crying all day about it, but he is certainly showing signs of anxiety that weren’t there before, all of which I expected but still hoped he wouldn’t feel.
Most mornings … OK OK every morning Joshua wakes when Daddy gets up to go to work and sneaks into bed next to me around 6am to have another hours sleep or to chat to me or even to sing … that’s been fairly normal for the last year, however this last few weeks he has been waking in the middle of the night and is coming through and wanting to get in between us in the middle of the night then getting upset when he is taken back to his own bed.
There have also been other little things that has shown us that he is anxious like the random questions that crop up … “when Kevin Kevin Minion (Joshua’s name for the baby) arrives I will still be your boy won’t I?” and his curiosity for his own birth has been a recent talking factor … initiated by me in the hopes to put his mind to rest since I will be in hospital after the baby’s birth and not sure how many days I will be there but when we went to the Midwife together last week he asked while I was having a blood test if he had to leave me there to have Kevin Kevin Minion.
So over the next two weeks I am going to make it my mission to spend some dedicated time with Joshua, doing things he wants to do with no mentions of baby … However I fear I may have just signed myself up to a trip to McDonalds and an afternoon or 3 of playing Super Mario games but hey ho!
I have no doubt this is going to be a learning curve for us all but I am grateful we are on this journey together.