There is something exceptionally beautiful about a baby’s first smiles and for me they really did mark a turning point in our life in general.
Jacobs first 6 weeks were filled with tears, puke and masses of tummy pain.
The days were filled with anxiety, stress and more and more of my own tears at not being able to make things better.
At Jacob’s 6 week check we discovered that he was suffering with acute Reflux and during week 6-7 instead of making him drink my expressed milk mixed with Gaviscon we decided to take a leap of faith and try proper Reflux milk … and after 2 days it seemed we had turned a corner.
I was wracked with guilt over not continuing to feed him myself but with more and more prescriptions needed to help him take my breast milk it really no longer made sense when we had found something that eased all his symptoms, his pain subsided, the tears stopped and the puke was no more.
The contorted red scrunched up face had gone, as had the tears and anxiety and at 6 weeks and 6 days on a 3am night feed I finally saw light at the end of the tunnel …
Jacobs first real smile.
As I leant over the Moses basket to take him out for a nappy change and feed this little face greeted me and stole my heart all over again.
It felt like a turning point in leaving the first few weeks behind and finally finding some peace and discovering who this little boy actually was.
In my rather emotional and hormonal brain it was almost as if he said thank you for making some very very hard and upsetting choices but they were the right ones.
Each time my little man smiles at me now I see it radiate from his eyes and it makes me smile even more …
24th March 2016 … The day my little man smiled for the first time and stole my heart … again.
Disclaimer: This is my entry into the Tots100/WaterWipes Baby Milestones challenge