I certainly don’t remember signing up and in fairness I think if I had opportunity I am not convinced I would have said yes… that little bundle of flailing arms and legs wrapped in a blanket had me lured into a false sense of security .. when I gave birth I never thought of having a teenager one day.
Be it my inexperience of the teenage variety or my lacking maternal skills, my teen has me stumped.
Over the last year there have been unresolved issues with my teen that I am not ready to share but all behaviours seem rather extreme to me … maybe I was not a bad teen after all?
For the last 2 years we have perpetually sat on this grounding, rollicking circle and it’s just like nothing has sunk in…. I am now just picking my battles.
Perhaps I am being mean laying it out there by starting to off load some of this, however I am sick of being lonely. I am not a perfect Mum and I although I am not happy with that I made peace with it a long time ago … but I still try, hard …. failing normally dismally when I forget the after school activity, outing, party or shop purchase .. but damn it I still try.
But cards on the table my teen has me stumped .. I thought I knew what made teen girls tick, however it seems I know nothings and that my own teen years are nothing other than a millions years ago and there was no knowledge to be gleaned from them at all .. other than 20/20 and white lightning are vile ..
I am missing my daughter and cant wait to see her on the other side …. where we can maybe be friends?