I don’t spend as much time as I should actually giving Joshua my undivided attention, In fact over the last 2 years since I started working for myself I have struggled with the guilt of starting a business and having Joshua in tow.
He currently goes to nursery two and a half days a week and it’s left me feeling guilty that I am not spending more one on one time with him, However with the commitment and restraints that the new business has taken up … and with nothing financial to show for the amount of hours that have been put in other than a part-time wage and glimmer of a more to come its been hard to quantify missing out of so many precious hours.
Since finding out Joshua’s new school and his now start dates I would be lying if I said I was panicking really ad its more like I am out and terrified that the time is slipping away and he will soon be at school.
So I have made a pledge to him that from now until September we are going to enjoy more time together and make the minutes count.
The day will soon be here that he doesn’t want or need his Mummy like he does now and so I am going relish in these next few months.
While on the way to meet up with Jen from Mum In The Madhouse and family this weekend I decided I would make a day of it with Joshua and booked us seats on the train so we could take snacks and chat about things … followed by a few hours in York just me and Joshua on an adventure, exploring and finding new things.
On Saturday I enjoyed holding my little boys hand, I enjoyed listening to him and talking with him, even if some of it was gibberish, I loved finding out what makes him tick right now at this stage in his life.