My Dearest Boy,
Over the last few weeks I have been worried about my ability to be the parent you deserve, about if I will get my parenting choices right. I have been reliably informed that this worry is in fact normal and that if I didn’t worry then I should worry about not worrying!
I worried uncontrollably about making the choice to take you to nursery early and with that I felt guilt … guilt that I couldn’t give you everything here at home with me. I felt shame that this made me a bad parent and that I maybe I couldn’t do more to help you learn to and grow and to interact with your peers….. Although If I am honest I don’t think I would ever pass at playing like a 2.5 year old.
This week you have made me so so proud to be your Mummy as you slide into your nursery like you had been there since birth. You made some friends even though one of them was touch and go when you tried to eat his snack while he gazed out the window…. it seems you were forgiven as he was still playing with you in the garden when I picked you up this week.
I now love the fact I have to physically pick you up under one arm to leave nursery, however the high-pitched squeal is somewhat embarrassing! – So please learn quickly that home time is in fact home time and that no amount of squealing is going to make me leave you there.
The pictures you have come home with this week melted my heart that you truly are growing up and becoming such a big boy and on the path of life, learning with each and every day.
I love the fact you continually surprise me with your new words and your insistence to help me do jobs around the house, although emptying out the clean washing onto the floor when the washer beeps is not going help me get them done quicker nor does shoving your head in there and rotating it … A&E is not a fun place to be and I would much rather you didn’t injure yourself in your attempt work our the physics of how its spins … however clever it maybe!
I am still learning too my little man and I hope we have lots of learning together yet to do ..
Love
Mummy x
What a lovely post! I’m so glad he is settling well into nursery. I think you’ve got the right balance with him going there a couple of times a week. X
aww thanks Sarah xx
Gorgeous post. Xxx
thanks honey x
Oh I am glad nursery went well. I know you were a bit worried about it. He’s a lovely outgoing boy so not surprised he’s made some friends.
awww thanks Erica, i was absolutely petrified so i am so pleased he has settled down too xx
Lovely post, nursery is always far worse for mums than it is for our little ones 🙂
i totally agree with that one! x
I’m happy to hear that he took so well to nursery! Children can really be full of surprises. My little one like to ‘help’ me around the house too, you know what I mean!
i sure do know what you mean, its amazing that them helping makes that chore last 1 hour long than it should of lol x
Glad he is settling in to nursery – we often feel bad and the kids don’t give two hoots about where they are as long as they are having fun!
Love the pics of you outside the beach huts xx
awww thanks Kara and i think your certainly right x
What an adorable post! Brings back memories of when my Jacob first went to nursery & bringing him his little paintings! So pleased he’s enjoying it and settling in well xx
thanks Debs xx
One of your best lovely 🙂 So glad he loves nursery so much xx
thanks honey x
Yayyyyyyy!!! This is so brilliant, great news he loves it 🙂 aww I’m very happy for you. I know how nervous you were. I love that he was eating his friends snack, hehehe 🙂
lol he is such a monkey isnt he! i am surprised his friend was still friends with him! lol
Awww how lovely – but he is adorable. Do miss my new best friend, shall have to see him again very soon x
i have no doubt he misses you too. He certainly loved holding your hand! lol
Oh wow, your just a good mum really, for to worry is to care you know.
Sounds like he is loving his nursery, can I confess when my youngest started at Easter I cried and cried, he loved it so much I wanted him to miss me more as I missed him.
Such a lovely post, brought a smile to my face and also know the washing machine fascination, they soon grow out of it, but watch out when they discover screw drivers, nothing will be safe then 😉
lol goodness it sounds like we are living identical lives!! although i do hope Joshua doesn’t pick up the screwdriver fascination! lol
Mothers’ guilt is bloody annoying, isn’t it? I’m a fellow sufferer too and I hate it. Glad to hear that nursery is proving to be a success though. CK has been going for a while and adores it. He’s learnt many skills that I simply couldn’t teach him – speaking German, for one. Makes me feel less guilty 🙂
i am so pleased i am not alone *passes cake* i think we are natural born stress heads! im afraid German is not on y list either! lol
Such a lovely post and gorgeous photos x
thanks Tami x
Sounds like he is very happy, and you are definitely doing what is right for you and him, and that’s the most important thing!!
awww thanks Karen xx
It’s lovely to hear he’s settling in so well Jaime, it will help to put your mind at ease. The worrying is definitely normal, I worry about the stupidest things too ha. 🙂 The path of motherhood certainly isn’t easy, but it’s a hell of a lot of fun isn’t it xxx
it sure is my lovely .. xxxxxxxx
awww honey i do hope things pick for you and peanut x
such a sweet post, I have my little one starting high school next week and one starting college, I am sure I will have a melt down!
i thought all of my emotional breakdowns were last yr when my eldest move to secondary school too!!
i fear we are always destined to worry… good luck to yours on their way to college and high school xx
Oh that mother’s guilt has a lot to answer for…. but that’s great to hear he’s settled so well into nursery! Sx
aww thanks Sara xx x
Lovely post 🙂 Don’t let that guilt get the better of you – it’s always there lurking with us mums! Fab that he’s settled in so well x
thanks honey xx
How lovely to know he’s so happy there that he doesn’t want to come home! I’m a firm believer that there comes a point for all little people where they will really benefit from a bit of time at Nursery. As you say they need the interaction with their peers. If they get all this a bit earlier it makes starting school a whole world easier too!
i do hope it makes going to school easier that would be super duper .. however i cant guarantee that i wont cry!
Such a lovely post. It’s great to see them enjoying nursery and making friends!
thanks Laura xx
Aww, lovely post. I think we all feel guilty, as soon as you become a parent, that’s it…..guilt forever.
Great pictures, lots of memories.
Enjoy 🙂
i think your right! lol gosh we are gluttons for punishment! lol
Such a lovely post! So pleased he has settled well, fantastic and makes it so much easier for you both. No guilt my love…we are all doing the best we can xxxx
awww thanks Julia xx
So sweet. U have to always just trust your instincts. Id love for my lil dude to be with me every single day and not at pre school but mummy works and for now he knows this blesses him with food in his belly and new spiderman books** so hard to let our lil loves go but as u said, my lil one also adores his school and has a set of friends he gets excited about seeing. Xx
i think we are always going to feel guilty arent we xx
Aw how beautiful, it sounds like he is really starting to settle in. xx
thanks honey, i think he certainly is now xx
It’s hard work being a mother. Not happy to just take a beating from the media and society in general – go to work, and you’re a heartless career bitch; be a stay at home mum, and you’ve given up, let the feminist side down blah blah blah – and yet we insist on beating our selves up too! You’re right, if you weren’t concerned and checking yourself to make sure you’re making the best choices you know for you and your family, you’d be a worry, so it is normal. But don’t worry honey, be concerned but don’t worry. You are clearly a wonderful, loving mummy, giving him lots of #magicmoments – while he makes his own in life… Like sticking his head into the washing machine! Loved that! Xxx
lol lol he is a bugger for the washing machine! lol
I hope i don’t feel guilty forever and as you said its hard as it dosnt matter what we doe we are never right lol
Oh this is gorgeous although the imagery of him eating that other kids snack is hilarious, as is the washing machine scenario……….
awww thanks Cathie, i fear both are very true lol .. just a day in the life lol x
Ethan started nursery and two and a half and I know it was something he needed but it was still a hard thing to do. He has learnt so much at nursery and its the best thing we ever did. So I think your feelings are normal. I’m glad he is getting on so well x
awww thanks Jane, i is really seeming to enjoy it so i think I did the right thing x
He sounds like a little dream-boat – our baby boys are so precious aren’t they? (not that girls aren’t of course, but the attitude isn’t there right now!) x
lol i so hear you!! xx
aww, sweet sweet letter lady! and i hope the peeps at a&e treated him well xx
lol thankfully we didnt have to go but if he continues with his obsession i am scared we will have too! lol
oh i feel your pain i was so upset about sending B off to nursery last February when he was 2 1/2 . I know it was for his own good and of course he eventually loved it but it was heart wrenching at the time. I think as a mummy we feel so much guilt over so many things that we wouldnt have done pre children. the fact that you did worry shpows what a brilliant mummy you are.
gorgeous photos – you can see the love you have for him in each on x x
awww thank you Jenny, it really did gut me that he was off to nursery even though i knew he would love it. xxxxxx
Awww I’m so pleased he’s enjoying nursery, it makes it so much easier to leave when they’re smiling 🙂 xx
it sure does honey ……phew!! xx